Karma is a bitch and she hates me.

ok for start of i dont believe in karma but i do believe in murphys law. last three weeks could easily be classified in bad as hell category. two weeks ago i sprained my ankle relativily badly and got my ankle wrapped in support wrap that was meant to hold it still and i was on crutches for a week and well i quess my ankles ligaments got beaten up since it still cant completely tolerate sudden impacts with out sharp pain.

so this series if followed by a brief argument between my friends about most insignificant thing like graphics card drivers… well after a while of that they asked me and i felt like the question was like “so whos side are you going to pick?” which was a difficult choice to make. apparently mr. murphy has sense of duty after all since my net connection went down, that happens every once in a while because of bad wiring in the building i live usually it is annoying as hell but now the timing was more than convinient. so that allowed me to avoid the whole mess and let things cool down till the next day. well it eventually turned out that every one had just one crappy day and wound up taking it out on each other.

well after that was done the rest of the week worked out just fine till easter… which completely screwed me over financially since i wasnt able to get any money untill the next week and rest of my family was on a yearly vacation way up northern lappi… so i had to use some of my travel money for school to get food for the easter… yea i really suck that bad with holidays i can never remember them. so because of that i couldnt go to school via bus or train because of the lack of money on the first day after easter.

this was well if you count being late and other inconvinient things that happened was other wise fine… except the creeping feeling that i had in last december. loneliness i keep thinking about it more and more that i need someone to talk to other than my friends someone that actually understands state of my existance on more than one level… ok to simplify it… theres part of me that wants a girlfriend while the other part which is the majority doesnt know why, nor how to even to begin to start that task? that little part of me is getting more and more distracting… every time i dont distract my self away from it i begin to think about it. well thats it from this post

if cant beat the system….

…destroy it and replace it with better one.

ok i never been one that much cared about local politics but even when i do participate in it the small way i can the goverment that gets elected has a tendency to screw things up badly. but i don’t think that any country has so called perfect government. I’m mainly talking from my stand point the little i watch European and Finnish political events along with US ones. i keep seeing one pattern in there no matter how democratic the society proclaims to be it never is even close to what its supposed to be there are always the few that either fight their opinion trough with out any regard to anything but personal power *cough* Bush’s government*cough* well i think that is enough at-least to prevent nut-jobs flooding my blog. so back to Finnish government which its few years have been riddled with increasing amount of stupidity which includes copyright laws that were lobbied by record companies and RIIA’s European pets (they were screwed up beyond belief before it was withdrawn and redrafted).

second the screwing students possibility for studying (suprisingly same Representative Tanja Karpela aka Lex karpela that was mostly responsible from the copyright law mess was behind this one too). she wanted to increase students monthly earning limitation by from its current 1550€ while at the same time cutting student support to nominal from its current state which to say is limited at best. that student support money is meant to enable students full day studying with out or with little loans at its current state which has been since the 1991 (when students voluntarily cut over 50% of it because of the economys depression at the time) so currently student support holds at best 760€ per month and Finnish poverty line is 780€ per month and by European one 800€ per month. well student protested against that idea whole-heartedly and requested 15% increase to the student support from its current which didn’t pass (even with over 25 000 collected names for it) so students have to wait a while to re-try it.

third well that’s pretty much general stupidity involving censoring of the Internet which now i have to admit shamefully is done via act of secret list of child porn sites which do only have few tens of suspected childporn sites and one actual one rest 1500+ sites are just collateral damage. mainly due they block the domain rather than the individual sites the censorship is done by finnish polices section called KRP.,keskus rikos poliisi, or central criminal police in english. personally censoring of anykind shouldnt be tolerated since whos to say if that becomes undercontroll of one that doesnt have as pure motives as orginally intended in which case we wind up in similar situation with China.

well back to forms of goverment and other things i dont particularly like democracy other than the concept but the problem in that system are people them selves since not everyone is at same intellectual or ideological level?

dictatorship can work if the leader is benevolent and manages to avoid corruption and uses his/her power via peacefull means not via force

anarchy well that isnt going to happen since people even if the central goverment would be destroyed would form different kinds of collectives whetever to be democratic, dictatorships or something else. that i think only happens because humans are social animals we think like dumb monkeys we are that groups have strenght which most cases is true.

collective well that is just impossible since people arent just that empathic toward each other and well even in such scenario individual becomes eventually unimportant part of the machinery that is replacable at anytime thus making any ideal of individuality pointless. so this wont happen untill someone can figure our either technologically or naturally done empathy and sharing of thoughts on equal ground.

i might post something on similar topics at later date. as for the dictator ship thing i dont exactly support it since it most likely wouldnt work unless it would have series of incredibly lucky coincidences and is also prone to bad leaders and egomaniacs in charge … well kinda like democracy is in which majority of the problems come because the goverment is detatched or too involved in peoples lives. something like small group of people would be able to make decisions that only effect their local area with little or no interference from the goverment. albeit again with this system is one inate problem people arent smart in groups, individuals are smart groups people are dumb, panicky foolish pack of animals.