ok for start of i dont believe in karma but i do believe in murphys law. last three weeks could easily be classified in bad as hell category. two weeks ago i sprained my ankle relativily badly and got my ankle wrapped in support wrap that was meant to hold it still and i was on crutches for a week and well i quess my ankles ligaments got beaten up since it still cant completely tolerate sudden impacts with out sharp pain.
so this series if followed by a brief argument between my friends about most insignificant thing like graphics card drivers… well after a while of that they asked me and i felt like the question was like “so whos side are you going to pick?” which was a difficult choice to make. apparently mr. murphy has sense of duty after all since my net connection went down, that happens every once in a while because of bad wiring in the building i live usually it is annoying as hell but now the timing was more than convinient. so that allowed me to avoid the whole mess and let things cool down till the next day. well it eventually turned out that every one had just one crappy day and wound up taking it out on each other.
well after that was done the rest of the week worked out just fine till easter… which completely screwed me over financially since i wasnt able to get any money untill the next week and rest of my family was on a yearly vacation way up northern lappi… so i had to use some of my travel money for school to get food for the easter… yea i really suck that bad with holidays i can never remember them. so because of that i couldnt go to school via bus or train because of the lack of money on the first day after easter.
this was well if you count being late and other inconvinient things that happened was other wise fine… except the creeping feeling that i had in last december. loneliness i keep thinking about it more and more that i need someone to talk to other than my friends someone that actually understands state of my existance on more than one level… ok to simplify it… theres part of me that wants a girlfriend while the other part which is the majority doesnt know why, nor how to even to begin to start that task? that little part of me is getting more and more distracting… every time i dont distract my self away from it i begin to think about it. well thats it from this post
